I suspect that this isn’t a problem, it’s just one of those administrative fuck ups, but it’s put me in a bad mood because of the potential implications. I’m feeling a bit lonely too. I want to meet an amazing woman. Like a woman I look at and think, “Wow, she’s special” and she’s vibrant and confident, and smart and intellectual. I meet women and so often I’m just bored; I meet people in general and so often I’m just bored.
I think I’m shutting down for the winter. I’ve started listening to jazz which is a winter thing: find a warm spot, curl up with a book and some jazz. I’m fucking reading Sexus which is fiction, and reading fiction is a winter thing for me. Also I’m starting to find it hard to get up in the morning. In a month it’ll be a right fucking struggle.
Ugh, I’m going to bed.