So I used the app to order my drinks. BM hates anyone who uses the app and if she’s working then I don’t use it because I care about BM. So. I tap in the drinks I want, the table we’re at, put in my card details, all good. Then I see BM and I’m like, “I’m in shit”. So she comes around the corner with the drinks, sees me, and there’s that kind of faux angry smile, and she makes to put the drinks down on the nearest table and makes to walk off. I get up and before I can take the drinks off her she brings them over.
A couple of the bar staff are next to us having a drink after their shift and are bemused about this since staff shouldn’t be telling customers not to use the app, never mind refusing to bring their drinks over and one of them is a manager. “I’ve banned him from using the app” she announces.
Later on I’m going to the bar, i.e not using the app, and I bump into her and she has this kind of “I’m watching you” smirk and we walk to the bar. I order my drinks but one of them is a coffee so I have to go to the coffee machine. I turn towards the machine and guess who is there. Yeah. “I wouldn’t have used the app if I knew that you were working” “Damn right! You shouldn’t be using it anyway!”
So then we order food and yeah, she brings it over. She comes through the kitchen doors, makes eye contact with me with that slight smile, that knowing little smile, pauses for a second or two and brings the food over. “Now this is an acceptable use of the app. I don’t mind if there are no drinks”.
Now this is a woman who has regaled me with how much she loves her boyfriend while her head was resting on my shoulder, while her boyfriend was not 4ft away before repeatedly hugging me.
I’ve given up analysing it all. I just enjoy it. Our thing has always been confrontation, we have mock arguments over everything. Also she’s put on some weight and I’m not going to lie, it looks really good on her. She’s got this amazing hourglass figure which fills her clothes.
I’m also not going to lie in that this constant challenging that she does kind of triggers this dominant tendency in me. Don’t get me wrong, I have really tender feelings about her. I see how hard she works, and I really admire that about her just as I really admire how she takes no shit and how generally strong she is. I hate coming into the pub and seeing how exhausted she is even as she greets me with a sleepy smile. I want to look after her, I want to make her life easier. I want give her everything that she wants. I want to protect her, keep her safe and make her happy but god damn it I want to put the bitch in her place! God she triggers this desire to dominate her in me.
Her challenging me actually turns me on. I don’t want some passive little waif, I want a woman that stands up to me, I want a woman who can match me. I want a woman who I can struggle with. I don’t want someone submissive. I want someone strong willed and fearless, and she is.