About a year ago I saw a video of him citing research about how a high protein breakfast basically kills anxiety. Now, I really struggle to get up in the morning, I have a fifteen minute grace period at work because basically I don’t feel awake and I struggle to get in on time. It used to be that I would feel awake only after lunch and I was conscious that basically I was a zombie until lunchtime but then after that I would be awake and very productive. Also before lunch I’d feel like shit mood wise.
So I started avoiding breakfast cereals and porridge and anything carb related in the morning and just started having bacon and egg and coffee with cream and I fry the egg in butter. Alternatively, I have scrambled egg and smoked salmon. Occasionally I’ll have a yogurt too. The change is remarkable; I still struggle to get up in the morning, I’m zonked as I make breakfast, but by the time I get into work I’m awake and alert and in a good mood with good energy levels. The difference is amazing.
The only time I feel tired is after lunch for a bit and I eat shit for lunch usually. I have a sandwich, a packet of crisps and a flapjack. On Tuesday I decided to go for a caesar salad and I felt much better than I usually do after lunch and I assume this is, if it isn’t just a random one off, down to cutting out the bread. Apparently pasta that’s cooked and cooled produces less of an insulin spike compared to bread. I’ve actually switched from wheat to rye bread at home because I read that rye produces less of an insulin spike. From now on I’m going to avoid sandwiches and see what that does, if anything. Maybe avoid the flapjack and the crisps too, although I do love the flapjack!
Generally I feel better in life after maybe a bit less than a year after making these dietary changes. I feel that my mood is far more stable and that I’m more positive and I’m hoping that I can find a dietary solution to feeling sluggish in the morning. Certainly I think that my depression is much less serious than it used to be, now I feel that it’s situational rather than so much of a health condition. If I’m depressed it’s because of something happening in my life and when I fix that thing the depression lifts.
That said, at the moment I think that I have depression in that I have no motivation to do anything and I don’t enjoy anything, I feel quite numb most of the time and I’m pensive. I’ll lay around just thinking for hours. That’s a lot better than it used to be though. Occasionally I’ll get the odd intrusive thought or a flashback of some humiliating thing but it’s occasionally, it’s not the constant movie reel of my total disaster of my life narrated with comments about how shit I am, like it used to be. Importantly, I’m not catastrophically exhausted all the time.